I had a dream. A very stupid clumsy and confusing dream. It was e first time for me to dream of my school mate. The dream is very vague in my mind. I couldn't remember it well. Not at all. Losing memory bit by bits. Just couldn't gather e information together. I have no clue why this happens. So i think, think hard, very hard, still couldn't break through e barrier. Something stopping me. Guess there's a tumor in my head that absorbing all e "nutrient" information from sharing with e rest of e brain. The selfish tumor. Only keep e good ones for himself. Keeping it secretly, no one would ever had a chance to get to it. Even if they do, they will be tired and by e time they got e information they won't have enough time to carry e info back. That's how powerful e tumor work. It will torture them until they're almost at e edge of life. That's pathetic. I hear my friend's alarm ringing. It's time to stop and get ready for a new journey. Bon Voyage mates(includes me).

 Cheers. see you at e end of the week maybe.

Here i'm writing this is my third day to shangri-la to work as a waiter. I realize my frequency to harbour front has been increased significantly. My reason of not noticing it might be because of those bunch of guys i've came to know there. They're real group of funny guy. My potential group of new China friends. Throw vulgar as and when they feel like. It's like getting to know e knowledge of charge. Our topics conversation are revolving around. From e stuff talks to nonsense talks. The whole day revolving. I don't understand, it doesn't get tired of those talks though. Maybe every second there's an update of new happening things going on and on. It's like a a lively circle of RASA resort(i am not sure about others resort). Meanwell, today's work is pretty suck. Im very not satisfied with e leader today. The black indian. He's a biased faggot and also a naggy idiot freak. Such a failure he is. Oofs.. nasty guy. bye. 

I told myself i'll stop that.. no actually, it suppose to be i gotta stop it. I'm struggling within myself. This is a very awful feeling if you would know because you're gonna regret it immediately and that is really just so sucks! For god sake. What should i do?I've no clue at all. Damn...

Anyway this entry is dedicated to an elder friend of mine, Ah Man. I'm sorry to hear that you lost your brother. For whatever reason he's gone now and hope that won't sadden you further more because that's his ultimate choice(i don't know if this is a proper way to say though). Oh well you'd told us how close was your brother and you. The way you describe him when you carried his ashes with you and when you saw him in e coffin really remind me of how i was once used to be like that. I carried my Pa ashes on my hand and indeed i don't feel terrified at all. Instead it felt a familiar somehow. I think that's because after all that was my Pa's ashes. The one that give me life indirectly. 

So lesson learned. I'll never forget that moment. I'll take time to embrace him for his greatness. Everyone who knows him adore and give him respect because he was such a man that who is willing to lend a helping hand to those who are in need, by risking! That's how my Dad earn his respect from others. 

Wow, holiday's isn't gonna be so great i suppose because i am seem to be under some school curfew. Who knows what's gonna happen e next min. I am just waiting anticipately. I believe it will definitely be a great one if i really allow to dare myself to try  something new. I like it by the way. 

18th Years of Life

Today is a very special day for me. If i will be successful in my life starts from today. Right now, kicked off from two hours ago. My God Father told me once "everything that i do will affect whole of my life once i turn eighteen". So he advised me to think twice before i do anything. It is the quality in my life that's count, not the quantity. Life can be sum up by three words - It goes on...

So today i'm officially turning eighteen. It is a moment of prestige, a moment where i should take times to embrace my Mum's love for me, to show my graditure for her and also my "Angel Father". Eighteen years seem short but it took me a long way for me to perserverance to become who am i today, even though is not a perfect one. What i really wanna accomplish this year of my eighteen years life is simply still appearing vague in my mind. Actually is too vivid thats why it is very vague in a way. First day of turning three quarter adult life so there is definitely a need for me to take precaution of everything. The awareness has to be higher for me than before. Also needs to make amentment on my bad habits. So Cheerio Myint.

So far i've received two presents. A shirt and a wish material from Liu Chang and Wu Yi Yang respectively. Also a wave of blessing from Aunty Ding,Seet and Shark. I am pleased that I've come to know all of em(includes some i didn't name). They add colour in my drawing. I've gradually becomes a colourful piece of worthy drawing. I'm a greety person so i'll look forward to receiving more of presents haha. So HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY Myint. You're getting older..

Snow Queen

I'm exhausted, uneasy and yet there's some excitement growing. I'm in pain, my heart is in pain, as if e "heart" isn't my own. It is someone else one that has live it in mine wrongly. The strange thing is there's no particular thing happen to me recently. Suppose is the "Snow Queen" that has got me affected. I like e play so much. Guess thats because i can somehow relate to the play. A romance but a very sad ending play. Not only is the play makes things interesting but its also the actor. Their skill of acting is just marvelous. I surrender. Probably a bit too emotional. I can't stop thinking about it. I don't know why. Exam is around the corner and i'm still so into this. Hopeless.

I'm rushing.. so.

Summary of e missing post

It is raining now. I've missed so many of my daily/weekly reflection. I'm not familiar with my own blog now. That is a terrible move i know. And on top of that i'm having a flu right now. 

I just finished watching a korean series 15 minutes ago. Named "snow white". Not the common fairy tale "snow white" which everybody knows, but the korean ones. They've got some area in common though. First impression, i really like that. It totally talking about the kind of love scene i like. Completely struck me and im wholly obsessed to it. 

Well the reason i've not been here is simply because .. iam lazy, yes lazy. So you could call me Mr Lazy right now and not others name. Thats not funny. My most recent activities - went to Bintan(Indonesia) for a holiday during the fall(September) break. Love it. I found myself liking traveling gradually. I really like the feeling of bouncing around at different places, trying difference things out. Experiencing life that is likely to be called e "HOLY" life. I like that. It's terrific. It has became my dream of traveling around. I want to meet people. Get to know em and became friend with em. I want to meet great guys and girls around the world. Guess i'm living because of that. I live for my dream. 

I'll post more about my past post next time. I'll try not to be lazy. I'm really tired..

Summary of e missing post